Thanks for sharing how you are doing. Hang in there and just keep going knowing that we are all in your corner.
Thanks for asking how we are doing. It is a struggle for me to deal with the terror of becoming a fascist country and I have been keeping occupied with banal things as a distraction in order to not fall back on my disordered eating strategies. I do my part in the fight for truth and justice when I am up to it and that will have to be enough for now. Hope is essential and every day is a new opportunity for things to be better.
Sending you love and solidarity, Sharyn. It's always work, but it's worth it, right? I'm especially holding you in my heart regarding disordered eating. I know how incredibly pervasive it is, and I hope that we can both find refuge in more healthy coping mechanisms.
I'm so sorry you've been going through that, River. Living in flashbacks is torture, even for a short period of time. I hope you're finding some healing time.
Thank you Antonia <3 In the midst of work and medical stuff I am miraculously also healing. I hope you're doing well and seeing some first signs of spring in Montana<3
Sending you lots of spacious permission and wishes that regenerative work finds you soon and starts giving back to you.
Also, I wanted to encourage you to turn your paid subscriptions back on. You have a beautiful archive of writing that people can make good use of while you make it through this hard season. Their monthly sub goes toward that, too—not just the new stuff. 🫶
Thank you so much Amanda. I think I will send out a poll to my readers about whether everyone is okay with me going back to paid- that will help me rest easy. And I got your email! <3 I hope you're doing well and I think of you often. <3
River, sending you so much love and healing. I want you to know I think about this newsletter and you often, specially in your absence my thoughts grow fonder and I send small prayers to the universe for your well being. Be well dear friend. And thank you for the reminder of holding ourselves with love and gentleness. 💜
Thank you so much, Swarnali. I think of you often, too, and I miss your newsletter (and many others). Can't wait to have some space to revel in your writing.
"the political climate is toxic but so many flowers are blooming" is true of where I am too! BTW, do you know wht those red flowers are called?
I'm doing okay, still waiting for some things to happen. Enjoying the space, the time to myself. Procrastinating on writing, even though I love writing, but it makes it hard to be in the world, somehow, and sometimes I want to be more in the world.
Wow! I relate to so much of what you have written in this brief yet elegant update. Encountering past versions of myself, reexperiencing the mortification of much of that, attempting new filters and paradigms for understanding and making peace with that (and gasp, even appreciating that? Okay, maybe not yet). Also feeling and smelling Spring even though I am actually surrounded still by snow and melting ice. Noticing birds. Playing with dogs. Also, trying to live in my body more. Fasting today to rest from digesting and thinking about weights! Mostly remembering to be present if I can. Thanks for being part of my human family. And to be grateful for that ❤️
Thank you so much Karen! Spring is definitely coming. I miss the lilacs and peonies and crocuses of CNY (but I am not complaining about the weather here :))
Thanks for sharing how you are doing. Hang in there and just keep going knowing that we are all in your corner.
Thanks for asking how we are doing. It is a struggle for me to deal with the terror of becoming a fascist country and I have been keeping occupied with banal things as a distraction in order to not fall back on my disordered eating strategies. I do my part in the fight for truth and justice when I am up to it and that will have to be enough for now. Hope is essential and every day is a new opportunity for things to be better.
Take good care.
Sending you love and solidarity, Sharyn. It's always work, but it's worth it, right? I'm especially holding you in my heart regarding disordered eating. I know how incredibly pervasive it is, and I hope that we can both find refuge in more healthy coping mechanisms.
I'm so sorry you've been going through that, River. Living in flashbacks is torture, even for a short period of time. I hope you're finding some healing time.
Thank you Antonia <3 In the midst of work and medical stuff I am miraculously also healing. I hope you're doing well and seeing some first signs of spring in Montana<3
Mostly: many, many chickadees, robins, flickers, and starlings being busy! Some buds opening ...
<3 it's coming!!!
Sending you lots of spacious permission and wishes that regenerative work finds you soon and starts giving back to you.
Also, I wanted to encourage you to turn your paid subscriptions back on. You have a beautiful archive of writing that people can make good use of while you make it through this hard season. Their monthly sub goes toward that, too—not just the new stuff. 🫶
Thank you so much Amanda. I think I will send out a poll to my readers about whether everyone is okay with me going back to paid- that will help me rest easy. And I got your email! <3 I hope you're doing well and I think of you often. <3
It's good to hear from you, River. I'm sorry you're going through a hard time, and I'm glad you're still here.
Thank you Tiffany. <3
Keep it up! The fact that you expressed the tests you are going through cohesively here is a witness that you've got this!! It's going to be alright.
Thank you so much, Kiran!
Pleasure :) Your piece help me and I'm sure many others. keep going orginal :)
Holding you up as you heal, as you move towards the end of coursework (congrats!!). 🌸
Thank you so very much, Freya <3
Always good to hear from you, River. Sending you vibes of peace.
Always good to hear from YOU Chip! <3
River, sending you so much love and healing. I want you to know I think about this newsletter and you often, specially in your absence my thoughts grow fonder and I send small prayers to the universe for your well being. Be well dear friend. And thank you for the reminder of holding ourselves with love and gentleness. 💜
Thank you so much, Swarnali. I think of you often, too, and I miss your newsletter (and many others). Can't wait to have some space to revel in your writing.
"the political climate is toxic but so many flowers are blooming" is true of where I am too! BTW, do you know wht those red flowers are called?
I'm doing okay, still waiting for some things to happen. Enjoying the space, the time to myself. Procrastinating on writing, even though I love writing, but it makes it hard to be in the world, somehow, and sometimes I want to be more in the world.
Hope things get better for you <3
I love that you are taking a break from writing. We all need that, I think. Are you still at the beautiful retreat? Sending you much much love.
Not a retreat, i'm at a friend's, cat- and house-sitting. I'm working too, just not on my novel, so it doesn't feel like real work.
Wow! I relate to so much of what you have written in this brief yet elegant update. Encountering past versions of myself, reexperiencing the mortification of much of that, attempting new filters and paradigms for understanding and making peace with that (and gasp, even appreciating that? Okay, maybe not yet). Also feeling and smelling Spring even though I am actually surrounded still by snow and melting ice. Noticing birds. Playing with dogs. Also, trying to live in my body more. Fasting today to rest from digesting and thinking about weights! Mostly remembering to be present if I can. Thanks for being part of my human family. And to be grateful for that ❤️
Thank you so much Karen! Spring is definitely coming. I miss the lilacs and peonies and crocuses of CNY (but I am not complaining about the weather here :))
I feel this in so many ways. Faith and hope are so hard to hold onto but also feel like the only things we have sometimes. Sending love ❤️
Sending love right back you you. <3