There is a lot to feel guilty about. There is a lot that we are not doing. There is a lot falling to the wayside. There is a lot slipping through the cracks. Guilt itself is slippery. So much a part of us, that we forget it’s optional. Do you know guilt like I do? So intimately it feels like a second skin, so easy to slip into?
I can very much relate to your musings about rest and tiredness and missing and old home. I have no sage advice to give, just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in this.
Thank you for writing this and your raw honesty. It's so hard when we make a decision and it's not everything we imagined (because of course we imagine things will be wonderful, otherwise we would never make a change). I think a key to all of these difficult feelings is self-compassion. Of course you are going to feel a jolt. Of course you are going to feel unmoored. Of course it sucks feeling surrounded by conservative people. I just made a big move from Seattle myself, and I am having similar feelings of being rocked by a more conservative area. Let me tell you that there are hippie weirdos everywhere, and the more conservative the area the more we stick together. And honestly a lot of these conservatives are lost, confused, and led astray by malicious manipulation. Maybe you're exactly where you need to be, or maybe you had to give this a try because you would always wonder "what if" if you hadn't. No matter what, you can still keep checking in with yourself and if one day you decide it's not for you, you can make another change. I think most importantly, your existence does not get swallowed up by your area, even if it feels like that sometimes. You get to cast a vote every day just by being there and having impacts you don't even know about. Step into your power and your self-compassion!
Wow, I really loved this post. I actually gasped at the part about guilt stealing actual rest time and replacing it with mindless quasi rest like doom-scrolling. I know what it’s like to feel unmoored in a strange new place. The loneliness is so huge. I’m hoping you feel more settled soon!
I can very much relate to your musings about rest and tiredness and missing and old home. I have no sage advice to give, just wanted to let you know that you are not alone in this.
Thank you for writing this and your raw honesty. It's so hard when we make a decision and it's not everything we imagined (because of course we imagine things will be wonderful, otherwise we would never make a change). I think a key to all of these difficult feelings is self-compassion. Of course you are going to feel a jolt. Of course you are going to feel unmoored. Of course it sucks feeling surrounded by conservative people. I just made a big move from Seattle myself, and I am having similar feelings of being rocked by a more conservative area. Let me tell you that there are hippie weirdos everywhere, and the more conservative the area the more we stick together. And honestly a lot of these conservatives are lost, confused, and led astray by malicious manipulation. Maybe you're exactly where you need to be, or maybe you had to give this a try because you would always wonder "what if" if you hadn't. No matter what, you can still keep checking in with yourself and if one day you decide it's not for you, you can make another change. I think most importantly, your existence does not get swallowed up by your area, even if it feels like that sometimes. You get to cast a vote every day just by being there and having impacts you don't even know about. Step into your power and your self-compassion!
I loved every word of this post and completely relate to just about all of it! I also love your daily idea and will look forward to those emails.
Wow, I really loved this post. I actually gasped at the part about guilt stealing actual rest time and replacing it with mindless quasi rest like doom-scrolling. I know what it’s like to feel unmoored in a strange new place. The loneliness is so huge. I’m hoping you feel more settled soon!