From Fear, From Grounded Knowing

decisions, decisions and money, money

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Decisions used to be no problem. When I was younger I’d move, try things out, make drastic changes in my life without agonizing or worrying. I had so much time, you know? But as I near my forty-first year decisions have gotten more difficult. In less than twenty years I will be sixty. Does it sound absurd to put it that way, as if twenty years is a blip of time that will pass like a minute? I would have thought so at twenty. Now, not so much. I never thought I would so viscerally understand what a hair stylist once said to me: that time passes so quickly. I feel deeply connected to my younger self, and yet people no longer see my younger self when they look at me. I am a different person to them si…