A Tiny Hiatus & Some Exciting News

Pausing Paid Subscriptions until January 1st

Helloooo my friends!

A couple weeks ago I paused my workshop, The Internal Gaze, because the posts weren’t getting much engagement. I think everyone (including me) has been focused on today’s election and maybe a little bit too preoccupied to fully engage in deep reading and writing.

I’m pausing The Internal Gaze until directly after the new year.

I am also pausing paid subscriptions for the rest of the year. There are a couple of reasons for this, and it’s all good news. More than anything, I don’t want paying members to feel like you aren’t getting what you signed on for, which is why I think it’s best to pause payments for the holidays. You’ll still get newsletters!

I know I don’t have to pause paid subscriptions— many of you have told me that you’re willing to stay on through a hiatus, but doing so takes the pressure away, for me. It lets me off the hook.

And I do need to be let off the hook, because I’m in the final phases of copyediting and proofreading my forthcoming book, HOTSHOT, which I’ve been working on for ALMOST SIX YEARS.

I have a quick turnaround with copyediting, and then I’ll be going over the proofs in December, during my holiday “break” (haha).

Everything is starting to feel really real. In the next week Grove Atlantic will release their spring catalog, any my book is in there. I still haven’t been given a publication date but I am pretty sure it’s coming out in August 2025. There are cover proofs! The cover is beautiful and I can’t wait to share it with you.

Right now I am just trying to keep myself afloat. I started the semester off buried in revisions, and I’ll be ending it buried in edits. All while teaching two classes and reading my my doctoral exam.

For the past few years I’ve been living as if my energy is unlimited.

I now viscerally understand the phrase “autistic burnout.” I am feeling it. I’m in over my head. I must accept my limitations if I want to have a sustainable life as a writer, and I have to prioritize these last book edits.

Not only is there book and school work that needs doing, but there’s also personal, emotional, and spiritual work. These have been sidlined for too long. I’ve let my perfectionism get the best of me- but I’ve also needed to stay afloat financially after my spinal surgery and cross country move. I have enough (for now). And that has to be enough, for now.

Although it’s currently 80 degrees outside, the autumn urge to hibernate is calling me. I’ll need lots of internal resources as my book is birthed into the world. Soon enough the book will be announced. Then there’s promotion, and planning. And my PhD prelims. And more teaching!

I’ll touch in again soon. For now, I am grateful you’re here and grateful for this community. <3